Matthew 14:22–33 (ESV)
My therapist asked me recently, “How are you?”
I shrugged. “Been mired in the blues.”
The words were not dramatic or catastrophic. They felt heavy, like rowing against a wind that won’t let up.
That’s where today’s passage meets me.
Jesus sends the disciples ahead ushering them into the boat. This is a detail that matters. They’re not out on the sea because they missed God. They’re out there because they obeyed Him.
And still, the wind is against them.
I don’t know about you, but for me, that disrupts a lot of neat, tidy theology. We like to believe obedience leads to smooth sailing. However, my personal experience has taught me that oftentimes obedience leads straight into resistance.
Immediately he made the disciples get into the boat and go before him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowds. And after he had dismissed the crowds, he went up on the mountain by himself to pray. When evening came, he was there alone, but the boat by this time was a long way from the land, beaten by the waves, for the wind was against them. And in the fourth watch of the night he came to them, walking on the sea. But when the disciples saw him walking on the sea, they were terrified, and said, “It is a ghost!” and they cried out in fear. But immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying, “Take heart; it is I. Do not be afraid.” And Peter answered him, “Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water.” He said, “Come.” So Peter got out of the boat and walked on the water and came to Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid, and beginning to sink he cried out, “Lord, save me.” Jesus immediately reached out his hand and took hold of him, saying to him, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?” And when they got into the boat, the wind ceased. And those in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.””
Matthew 14:22-33 ESV
The text says the boat was “beaten by the waves.” That word beaten sounds relentless. They didn’t encounter one big crash, but constant pressure. Wave after wave and effort after effort is met with unrelenting resistance.
And then, somewhere between 3 and 6 in the morning, when their souls felt most exposed, Jesus comes walking on the very thing that’s fighting them.
He doesn’t stop the storm first.
He steps into it.
They don’t recognize Him. They think He’s a ghost. Which seems honest, if we’re paying attention. Sometimes Jesus shows up in ways that don’t fit our expectations, especially when we’re already strained.
But then His voice cuts through:
“Take heart; it is I. Do not be afraid.”
He reassures them with His presence.
I am here.
Peter, being Peter, doesn’t settle for reassurance.
“Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water.”
There’s something in me that resonates with that. Not because I’m naturally bold, but because in high-stress and despondent moments alike, I’m looking for clarity. If it’s You, Jesus, call me. Don’t leave me guessing in the dark.
And Jesus says, simply:
“Come.”
And Peter steps out.
Let’s not rush past that. He actually walks on the water. In the middle of the storm. In the dark. With the wind still howling.
For a moment, the impossible holds.
But then,
“when he saw the wind…”
That line gets me every time I read it.
The wind didn’t just start. It had been there the whole time. What changed was Peter’s focus.
He shifts his attention from Jesus to what opposes him and fear floods in.
He begins to sink.
Not instantly gone, but enough to know he’s in trouble. Enough to cry out one of the most honest prayers we have:
“Lord, save me.”
No polished language. No devotional tone. Just need.
And immediately…immediately…Jesus reaches out His hand.
That word matters to me these days.
Immediately.
Not when I’ve gotten my head straight.
Not when I’ve prayed better.
Not when I’ve proven something.
Immediately.
Jesus still asks him, “Why did you doubt?” Not to shame him, but to show him how the shift happened.
You were walking on water, doing the impossible, until you trusted the wind more than Me.
I think that’s what the blues feel like for me.
Friend, there are times in our life when Jesus doesn’t calm the storm until after He’s revealed Himself in it.
Know that if you’re rowing hard and think you’re getting nowhere, if the wind feels personal and obedience hasn’t made things easy, you are likely exactly where God meant you to be.
Keep your focus on Jesus. He is faithful and He is trustworthy.

Be salty, stay lit.
Rainer Bantau —The Devotional Guy™
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Amen 🙏
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You are blessed to have a spouse who understands and helps you navigate the rough spots!
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Thank you, Barb. Working toward a healthier self isn’t easy, but I’m trying. Thankfully, I have a loving and supportive wife in Terri, encouraging me when life is harder than it needs to be.
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I am proud of you for naming your issue “mired in the blues” and working toward a healthier self.
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