RE: View | Beautiful Boy

Last Saturday, while Sweet T and I were enjoying the long Thanksgiving weekend, we had the chance to check out a couple of movies we’d both wanted to see. Sweet T and I love movies and intriguing TV shows. It’s not unusual for us to binge watch episodes of our latest favorite program. For example, right now we’re getting caught up on “Mr. Robot” via Amazon Prime. These days, we don’t seem to go out to the movies as often as we once did, certainly not as frequently as we did growing up. As a kid, I loved going to movies and loved film. It wasn’t unusual for me to go to the local cinema and check out a couple of movies.

One of the movies we saw was the Queen biopic, “Bohemian Rhapsody.” The other movie we checked out was “Beautiful Boy,” starring Steve Carell and Timothée Chalamet as a father and son struggling through the hardships of addiction. The movie is based on the best-selling pair of memoirs from father and son David and Nic Sheff. Beautiful Boy chronicles the heartbreaking and inspiring experience of survival, relapse, and recovery in a family trudging through the rollercoaster ride of addiction.

With both of us having our own different subjective experiences with addicts and addiction, Sweet T and I found the film challenging. Much of the story rang true, drudging up old memories, albeit from our own unique perspectives.

The movie, directed by Belgian filmmaker Felix Van Groeningen, focuses more on the parental perspective of David Scheff, thoughtfully portrayed by Carell, and the blended points of view of his current wife Karen (played by Maura Tierney) and Vicki, Scheff’s ex-wife performed by actress Amy Ryan. The film intertwines Nic Scheff’s story, told from his book “Tweak,” with the memoir written by David, “Beautiful Boy.”

The movie does an excellent job accurately displaying the juxtaposition between the euphoria of being high and the down spiraling downspout of dependency. The film flows between past and present, depicting the hopes associated with sobriety and the dark dirge of repeated relapses.

This is how addiction unfolds. It happens over time. None of us know before we start if we will be addicts. No one intends to be an addict. You buy the lie that you have it all under control, each time going further than the time before when you swore you were done. The film paints an honest picture of the step-by-step fall Nic and other addicts experience as they tumble further into the deep destitute of drug dependence.


I think it is a film worth seeing for anyone working with addicts or who has experienced addiction—either as an addict or as someone struggling to find answers for their addicted loved one. It’s not a feelgood movie but it does offer a faint light of hope. There are other options available to an addict other than jail or dying from the consuming disease of addiction. The addict’s family can be restored and find a new normal. But it’s not an easy road. And certainly, it’s a road fraught with potholes and obstacles set to veer all lives involved off track. Addiction doesn’t just destroy the user; it decimates anyone in proximity, like a mad hand grenade or renegade IED.

The Devotional Guy™


Morning Prayer 9 | Love

22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. Galatians 5:22-23 (ESV)

In Galatians 5:22-23, the Apostle Paul lists the characteristics that become evident when we allow the Spirit to control us rather than the flesh. The first characteristic Paul lists is love. Love is the great connector. It connects us to God and to others. Love must be present in us if we are to love others. If we are missing the love of God, it is difficult to view ourselves in the way the Lord sees us.

Love can be described as a profoundly tender, passionate affection toward another person. Love is a deep affection for someone. God has a deep, passionate, tender affection for us. We are called to love others with a love similar to how we love ourselves.


As an addict, my addictions wove their way into all my loves. My understanding of love was misconstrued and focused on the wrong things. This can happen to all of us. We put our love in things that bind us—like that next promotion, buying that new car, getting our kids into the best school—instead of being free to love unconditionally without bondage. Twisted love punishes us because we aren’t perfect enough and recalls all the ways we have failed or reminds us of the numerous mistakes we’ve made, thus becoming unworthy of love. Rather than resting in God, our love becomes dependent on outside things to affirm our value and worth. Unhealthy love robs us of our dignity and self-respect.

The idea is that when we are healthy in mind, body, and soul we know how to love ourselves and thus know how to love others. It’s hard to love others if we don’t love ourselves. It’s difficult to love others in a godly way if we ourselves don’t know the love of God or how to love God.

God is love, and whoever abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him.

 1 John 4:16b (ESV)

We are created in the image of God. In Scripture, God Himself is described as the very essence of love. God demonstrated His deep, passionate love for us by willingly offering His Son as an atoning sacrifice for our iniquities and waywardness. In the same way, we should strive to model God’s love in our interaction with others. That starts with letting God in our hearts and allowing Him to shower us with His love so that we can learn to love ourselves and therefore demonstrate that love toward others.

37 And he said to him, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. 38 This is the great and first commandment. 39 And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself.

Matthew 22:37-39 (ESV)



Father God help me love others the way You have loved me. Help me grow a healthy self-image so that I am free to love others in a way that honors You and brings You praise. Father God, I thank you for the love you showered upon me through the atoning sacrifice of Your beloved Son, Jesus. May your Spirit continue to teach me how to love You and others with a deep, passionate affection. Amen.


The Devotional Guy™

Hello Dopamine, My Old Friend

Teaching addiction education class is not something I dreamed of as a kid growing up in the piney woods of East Texas. Yet, there I was Friday morning, my coffee steaming., standing in a cafeteria turned into a makeshift classroom. Roughly 50 street-hardened men, ranging in age from too young to know for sure and old enough to know better, filled the room. When you’re young, you have lots of porcelain god moments, swearing you’ll change. As you age and become more aware of your addictions, you don’t can’t quite grasp why you still can’t quit even though life, the law, and former loved ones have given you every incentive and opportunity. In either case, you live teetering on a constant edge between clarity and compulsion, with clarity rarely winning. It’s a humbling moment for me because teaching an addiction education class usually implies you have some personal knowledge regarding people’s habits, hang-ups, compulsions, and fetishes. And that I do; I am one.

The group of men I had the privilege of standing before found themselves living at a homeless shelter due to their dependences and cravings for the different monkeys riding shotgun on their backs. We focused on four: alcohol, drugs, real sex, and fake sex (porn). As men, these tend to be our big fixations. Be assured, they are not the only types of addictions or compulsive obsessions people face in this world.

To be clear, all homeless people aren’t addicts. Addiction can lead to homelessness. Some homeless people turn to substances after experiencing life on the streets. However, addiction is an equal opportunity destroyer impacting peaceful suburban neighborhoods just like the one you call home. I know addicts who live good lives from the outside looking in. Addiction isn’t just substance abuse. Chances are you know someone addicted to porn sitting at a computer feeding their fetishes in the comfort of their home. Maybe it’s happening in your house right now? You may know someone who is struggling with behaviors like gambling, anorexia, or other disorders and compulsions. Addiction is something that touches us all and comes in many forms. When is the last time you spent a day without your smartphone?

Life is hard and we love to medicate. I have found this to be true in the First World where we use fancy prescriptions and toys to mask our senses and in the Third World where kids sell glue found in garbage dumps overrun with trash and refuse.

Psychology Today defines addiction as “a condition in which a person engages in the use of a substance or in a behavior for which the rewarding effects provide a compelling incentive to repeatedly pursue the behavior despite detrimental consequences.”

You want to stop. You try. But you can’t.

You recognize you should stop. You don’t.

Hello dopamine, my old friend. I see you’ve come to play with my mind again.

Dopamine is a neurotransmitter that helps control the brain’s reward and pleasure centers.


As I mentioned earlier, addiction involves the use of a wide array of substances like alcohol and nicotine and including inhalants, opioids, cocaine, and other substances. Addiction also covers behaviors such as gambling and sex. Scientific evidence shows that the addictive substances and behaviors share a key neurobiological feature; they intensely activate brain pathways of reward and reinforcement, many of which involve the neurotransmitter dopamine (What is Addiction? 2018).

Come to me, all of you who are tired from carrying heavy loads, and I will give you rest. – Matthew 11:28

But for me and the men in this room addiction is more than a psychological condition. There’s something more missing than the off-switch that other people seem to have when it comes to drinking a little drink and smoking a little smoke. For us, it is a spiritual condition. We’ve fallen so deep that when we look up we see bottom; tore up from the floor up. Mired and enslaved in our addictions, we only see darkness. No light. Zero. Zilch. We have become hopeless. Our lives are unmanageable. We don’t recognize the person we see in the mirror staring back at us. Who have we become? How did we get here? This is not the road we intended to take. None of us raised their hands as kids declaring we were going to grow up and be addicts. Yet, here we are, enslaved to our own maddening vices. What we once loved is now hellbent on killing us. Our compulsion aims to extinguish us. How do we stop?


Rollercoasters are fun until you want to get off and realize you can’t. Then panic sets in. You get angry. You fight it. It fights back. You stop for a little while and then it comes back vigorously, raising the stakes. Double or nothing every time. You hear it declare, “I’ll tell you when you can stop.”

You’re scared. You’re shaking; trembling down to the bottom of your soul. You want to quit.

Life has forgotten the men in this room. Few will come back from the depths of their fall. Success for them has been redefined. It’s no longer about the things we dreamed about as children. We’ve lost everything more than once. No matter how hard we try, we can’t seem to catch a break. We’ve been humbled into obedience and now simply seek to be faithful in a few, little things. We don’t trust ourselves with more. “Maybe one day,” one of the men says. “But not today.”

But those who trust in the Lord for help will find their strength renewed. They will rise on wings like eagles; they will run and not get weary; they will walk and not grow weak. – Isaiah 40:31

We’re all just living one day at a time. Today, I’m clean and sober. Today is all I can hope for. Yesterday is gone and tomorrow ain’t here yet. Each time we fall or stumble, we get up again, dusting ourselves off. Recovery demands persistence; that’s for sure. With each passing failure, we realize the power of our sickness. We lived in denial. Then, in a moment of clarity, we recognized that our lives had become unmanageable and admitted we were powerless over our addictions. We came to believe only a supernatural power greater than ourselves could rescue us from drowning and begin to restore us to sanity. We turned to God, as we understood Him, and made a conscious decision to submit our will and turn our lives over to His care. And so we began to turn the page, altering the course of our story, from hopeless to hopeful.

And that’s why I find myself standing in front of the room full of men hungry for life change. As gratitude, for God pulling me off the rubbage pile, I venture back into the cesspool, looking for survivors. I want to leave no man (or woman), behind. I need God to use me to bring hope to those lacking hope. God doesn’t want anyone to perish. He values our lives. He gave His Son so that we might experience living in eternal presence with Him. Going back, helps me grow in my faith. Teaching what I have come to know about addiction helps me maintain my continuous walk of sobriety.

Are you struggling with the demons of addiction? Do you yearn for the day when you’ll live clean and sober? There’s help. You’re not alone. YOU CAN.

Let your hope keep you joyful, be patient in your troubles, and pray at all times. – Romans 12:12

Recovery happens. Pass it on. 

Peace be with you. Blessings.

The Devotional Guy™


What is Addiction? 2018. Psychology Today. Sussex Publishers, New York. Retrieved from