Grasping At Hope In The Pits

Chances are you didn’t start out intending to become an addict. Having an “-ism” wasn’t on your childhood wish list. Truth is your addiction started quite innocently enough. You were at a party and someone offered you a beer. Later on, some friends were smoking a joint and offered you a hit and without thinking much about it you had a toke. No big deal. You didn’t die. To the contrary, you felt alive. You felt good. You enjoyed the buzz. Being high suited you. It made you more confident, more affable, and gave you a certain edge. Yeah, you were cool.

Then, one day, several years later, after puking your guts out, you look in a mirror at a public bathroom, not recognizing your own reflection. Hours later, you’re crawling around a parking lot; only God knows why. Five o’clock doesn’t come soon enough, so you start drinking early in the morning, snorting a line of blow or smoking a blunt to help you adjust your edge as you prepare to deal with the onslaught of a new day.

Once you had everything. Now you have nothing. Nothing at all. Everything and everyone you cared about is gone. Yet, you still can’t stop. People hinted that you might have a problem. But you didn’t listen. You rationalized they were weak or maybe jealous of your carefree, careless lifestyle. You were the life of the party. You were the king of the dance.

Now what? Are you still in denial? Do you really think you’re not powerless? The time has come to quit living under the illusion that you’re in control. You’re not. Addiction is your master. Chasing the high rules you. You can’t stop. The wheel goes round and round and there doesn’t seem to be an easy way off the rollercoaster ride you find yourself on.

Our nature causes us to be content with the status quo until such a time the pain of remaining the same becomes greater than the fear associated with making a change.

You don’t have to live this way. There is help available. There is a way out. There is a way to reclaim your life.

Why not let today be the day you begin your new life?

Serenity Plates

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