Focusing on What’s in Front of Me

Some days the struggle is more real than on others. Tuesday was one of those days. I was, as the Germans say, Durcheinander.

I’ve written about this phenomenon before.

Focus on what’s in front of you, Rainer (Ry-ner).

Focus is hard for me, right now. It’s perhaps my biggest struggle. I see it in my reading. I love to read. Lately, I’m great at starting books. And not so good at finishing them. I start, stop, restart, stop, start again. I’m trying very hard to rest in the Lord, but it’s hard for me not to drive my own outcome. I wrestle, resist, put off, push away, and prolong some of the most basic, simple things.

I’m working on giving our sunroom a makeover. Due to my mental state, it’s been slow-going. I’m sure Terri would be glad to have me finish it months and months ago. Thankfully, she’s been patient, loving, and kind. She just wants to see me get well. Although I’m past ready for it to be done, I am discovering that the Holy Spirit is at work amidst this slow and deliberate process. I’m reassured in trusting the Lord. My anxious soul is stilled and quieted.

Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!

Psalm‬ ‭46‬:‭10‬ ‭ESV‬‬
https://bible.com/bible/59/psa.46.10.ESV

Making art has helped me immensely. I’m not sure where I’d be without it. However, I can say without a shadow of a doubt, that creativity continues playing a big role in my healing.

For me, it’s all about getting healthy and being well. While I’ve struggled to get back into my daily walking routine due to a back injury, walking (and other physical exercise) also remains a critical part of my wellness recovery.

No, this is not where I expected to find myself as I approach 61. But, here is where I am.

So my friend, tell me… is it well with your soul today?